Whoever said that the holiday season is a relaxing time was either a really big liar or for some bizarre reason takes pleasure in the chaos that is Christmas! Honestly the last week let alone the up coming one have been and will be insane.

In the past week I've visited my paternal grandfather and then an hour later went back to say a final goodbye after he had passed away. Tuesday my parents were here, Wednesday my husband and I go to my maternal grandparent's place so that we can make the evening memorial with our family and the 10am funeral on Thursday. I was a pallbearer although it was in looks only...none of my cousin's would let me lift the coffin because of my 'delicate state' LOL Either way it was a long day and very emotionally draining.

Then Friday felt like it was longer although I didn't really do much that day...just sort of sat around entertaining whichever extended member of my parent's families that dropped by and hanging out with my parents. Funny story in the midst of this...so Jonathan and I show up at the restaurant where my dad's family is having dinner before the memorial. Dad stands up to hug us...my mom leans down to giggle and kiss my stomach before really saying hi to me...I looked at my aunt and said 'She didn't even say hi to me'...my aunt said 'it just gets worse'...lol So it begins, the part where I cease to matter and my children, their grandchildren, take precedents. So needless to say my parents are excited.

Anyway Saturday we drove back so I could work then today it's back again to visit with the fam and then oh yeah you guess it, back home...so I can work...then tomorrow it's up at the ass crack, work till early afternoon then prepare for a shindig with Jonathan's family (his mom's side) then Christmas day it's slamming Jonathan's parents, my parents, my grandparents and probably more of his family into one day. Then his immediate fam on Boxing Day....*sigh* THEN I work at the ass crack on the 27th.

I have the 30th off and let me tell you I'm not doing a DAMN thing except go on a date with my husband so we can reconnect without a member of our families in the area.

Next year we are flying at Christmas with an infant...lol why do I do this to myself?? :p

In pregnancy news I'm still doing well. I'm not feeling as tired as I used to...although now I do but I think that has more to do with this past week. :p Some parts of the day my stomach feels tighter than other times...and I swear I feel bigger every day. I can't lean over to tie my shoes anymore although I have been told this gets worse...I'm excited...lol Anyway Up at the ass crack is coming soon so I should get to sleep.

...honestly it's bizarre. I've heard the sound of baby's heartbeats in the womb before but there is something insanely different when it's your own child. I swear I thought I was in the twilight zone. I'm staring at my husband who's smiling thinking, this is just so REAL now.

So in case you haven't figured out I'm pregnant.

Figured I'd just do all of the big stuff in one year ya know. I mean what the hell. I'll start the year off engaged and end it married (three times) and pregnant...lol It took me thirty years to get here I gotta catch up ya know. :)

Okay so it was kind of cool...I'm lying there and our midwife puts the Doppler on me and realizes the battery is dead...lol I mean honestly talk about making me wait just that much longer! So I'm lying there with this cold lube stuff on waiting for her to find a battery or a Doppler that works...she comes back less than five minutes later but it felt like an eternity. Finally she puts the one that works on and I'm listening...then faintly there it is...a fast heartbeat wow...so cool. Then just because my kid is already a genius he/she apparently swims up closer and it we could hear it so clearly and so strongly...then he/she kicked and we heard it...LOL

Man alive that was too cool...now I gotta find clothes to wear because wow am I running out of things to wear...lol Apparently it's weight gain time and waiting to actually feel him/her moving. This is just so fun and I can't believe it's real. If I'm wearing rose coloured glasses then so be it...I like the view. :)