...you know that feels as weird as it sounds. lol It still astounds me that there is a little person all growing and getting bigger inside of me. Also doing a myriad of different acrobatics in the process...it's highly amusing. What is also amusing is my wonderful husbands reaction to the baby moving...which is to put his hand on my stomach and a second later say 'I can't feel anything'...one night I'm gonna tape his hand to my stomach and say he can't move it till he actually feels the acrobatics going on in there! :p Seriously I think the kid will be in on it cause as soon as Jonathan removes his hand I get a kick as if our child is saying 'Patience Dad!' lol

I'm a mere three shifts at work, four days and five nights from going to BC, not that I'm counting down or anything, but I haven't had a real vacation since my honeymoon and frankly don't think I'll get much after this wonderful child of mine comes into the world. :)

You know I was randomly thinking about people and their reactions to pregnant women as well as new babies...let's start with pregnancy (where I'm at) and new babies (where I'll be). First off my belly is open game for rubbing, touching and commenting on...especially after they have confirmation that I am, in fact, pregnant. Now don't get me wrong I've been getting compliments as to how my bump looks but really does that make sense? Your bump looks good...is there a time when it would look bad? Like a child being created in another womb doesn't look as good? I don't get it...plus if it 'looks bad' are you gonna tell me? The whole act of touching my bump is even weirder. Here's my disclaimer, all of you with whom I have a relationship you are welcome to touch my bump it's really okay...I'm talking about a stranger I don't know your name touching it...excuse me that is a very personal part of my person so get your grubby paws off. How come if someone were to just grab at me when I'm not pregnant it would be considered a type of harassment but when I'm pregnant it's fair game? Again...don't get it. I don't know that I'll want to be polite if some strange person starts feeling me up in public...lol

This leads me to the newborn baby syndrome. I've noticed that this really only occurs right and shortly after birth. The first time people see the couple with their new addition it's all grabby hands at the baby. Again, if you are a close friend or member of the family and the parents have given you permission then enjoy holding that baby...but try not to pry the child out of the parent's hands. I readily admit that I am a culprit of wanting to hold a new baby when I see them...granted I am usually in a relationship with the parents so that I know it's okay if I hold their child. Now this is coming from someone who is going to be a first time parent. I gotta say when I'm out in public with my baby I don't want random hands reaching in and trying to take my child without my express permission. It's funny because as soon as the child is old enough to recognize familiar people and unfamiliar people there are less arms trying to hold them. I'm probably over analyzing on many MANY levels and will more than likely calm down, especially when I have more children...but these are my thoughts as they stand...which is wobbly right now...lol

I'm going to step off my soap box now.

Ehm no I'm fine...really. :) See I had a halfway mark thought early on it went sort of like "Krista will have her baby and I'll be about halfway then it'll be me..." Then beautiful Malakai decided to arrive two weeks early and now it's my turn! LOL

But that's still quite a few weeks away so I'm choosing not to think about it till I have no choice. (Like during my prenatal classes :) Right now I'm still basking in the glow that was seeing my baby for the first time...I mean there's a real person in there. There honestly have been days when I've thought 'am I hallucinating...I'm just getting fat aren't I'...and then there is this person inside me (being shy with letting us know if they are a girl or boy) and the reality of it just sort of hit me. I mean I got to watch his/her little heart beating...and it was happening in me...the whole reality of it is so miraculous and beautiful it's very difficult to describe. I'm just in awe of creation I suppose...and how stubborn my child is already...oh dear.

I'm sort of mixed emotions on the whole deal of still not knowing the gender...I had psyched myself up to knowing what we were having and now that I don't know I'm not really as disappointed as I thought I'd be. I wasn't really keen on being overtly blue or pink depending and honestly I know I'm going to be surprised and thrilled when I find out...it just looks like that is going to be after this child is outside of me (a phenomenon that is just beyond my realm of thinking at the moment).

So tomorrow Jonathan and I are going to pick up the crib my parents got us...I'm not sure when we'll get it set up as the room still has to be cleaned (where are those cleaning fairies I ordered) and organized...but heck the crib will be here so I've decided that's going to be motivation for me...and hopefully for Jonathan too. ;)

I get another day off tomorrow and I'm enjoying the thought of sleeping in and just running errands with my husband...I feel like when I'm working I give so much of my energy to work that by the time I get home I really only have energy to eat and sleep...it's kind of depressing...I wish I could stay home more to be honest...but frankly no one is going to pay me to clean my own bathroom so at the moment I have to go to work. However I am SOOO excited to go to BC at the end of the month...I can't even describe it to you...I get to hang out with family...and get a load of the look on my sister's face when she sees me pregnant...I have an idea it's probably not going to really hit her till then. It'll be great.

Plus the weather is nicer there and I have so many relatives to see and hang out with that it's going to be a nice break from my 'get up and go to work' routine...plus the last trip till oh I guess till we fly out to Ontario for Christmas.

Okay I'm rambling to the point of not really knowing what I'm saying so I'm just gonna post this now. lol