Whoever said that the holiday season is a relaxing time was either a really big liar or for some bizarre reason takes pleasure in the chaos that is Christmas! Honestly the last week let alone the up coming one have been and will be insane.

In the past week I've visited my paternal grandfather and then an hour later went back to say a final goodbye after he had passed away. Tuesday my parents were here, Wednesday my husband and I go to my maternal grandparent's place so that we can make the evening memorial with our family and the 10am funeral on Thursday. I was a pallbearer although it was in looks only...none of my cousin's would let me lift the coffin because of my 'delicate state' LOL Either way it was a long day and very emotionally draining.

Then Friday felt like it was longer although I didn't really do much that day...just sort of sat around entertaining whichever extended member of my parent's families that dropped by and hanging out with my parents. Funny story in the midst of this...so Jonathan and I show up at the restaurant where my dad's family is having dinner before the memorial. Dad stands up to hug us...my mom leans down to giggle and kiss my stomach before really saying hi to me...I looked at my aunt and said 'She didn't even say hi to me'...my aunt said 'it just gets worse'...lol So it begins, the part where I cease to matter and my children, their grandchildren, take precedents. So needless to say my parents are excited.

Anyway Saturday we drove back so I could work then today it's back again to visit with the fam and then oh yeah you guess it, back home...so I can work...then tomorrow it's up at the ass crack, work till early afternoon then prepare for a shindig with Jonathan's family (his mom's side) then Christmas day it's slamming Jonathan's parents, my parents, my grandparents and probably more of his family into one day. Then his immediate fam on Boxing Day....*sigh* THEN I work at the ass crack on the 27th.

I have the 30th off and let me tell you I'm not doing a DAMN thing except go on a date with my husband so we can reconnect without a member of our families in the area.

Next year we are flying at Christmas with an infant...lol why do I do this to myself?? :p

In pregnancy news I'm still doing well. I'm not feeling as tired as I used to...although now I do but I think that has more to do with this past week. :p Some parts of the day my stomach feels tighter than other times...and I swear I feel bigger every day. I can't lean over to tie my shoes anymore although I have been told this gets worse...I'm excited...lol Anyway Up at the ass crack is coming soon so I should get to sleep.

...honestly it's bizarre. I've heard the sound of baby's heartbeats in the womb before but there is something insanely different when it's your own child. I swear I thought I was in the twilight zone. I'm staring at my husband who's smiling thinking, this is just so REAL now.

So in case you haven't figured out I'm pregnant.

Figured I'd just do all of the big stuff in one year ya know. I mean what the hell. I'll start the year off engaged and end it married (three times) and pregnant...lol It took me thirty years to get here I gotta catch up ya know. :)

Okay so it was kind of cool...I'm lying there and our midwife puts the Doppler on me and realizes the battery is dead...lol I mean honestly talk about making me wait just that much longer! So I'm lying there with this cold lube stuff on waiting for her to find a battery or a Doppler that works...she comes back less than five minutes later but it felt like an eternity. Finally she puts the one that works on and I'm listening...then faintly there it is...a fast heartbeat wow...so cool. Then just because my kid is already a genius he/she apparently swims up closer and it we could hear it so clearly and so strongly...then he/she kicked and we heard it...LOL

Man alive that was too cool...now I gotta find clothes to wear because wow am I running out of things to wear...lol Apparently it's weight gain time and waiting to actually feel him/her moving. This is just so fun and I can't believe it's real. If I'm wearing rose coloured glasses then so be it...I like the view. :)

What can I say I've been a bad bad blogger...like really bad. In fact there are no excuses I have been lacking in the blogging and I have nothing good to say for myself. So now, how am I? Good questions.

To start I am done getting married...the third and final installment of our weddings was on October 14th so I am now SO married...like really really married. Like wore my wedding dress twice had to write new vows because the old ones were outdone wore my wedding rings down the aisle married.

Now I get to live married life. Just live it...how boring...lmao I'm kidding it's great. For example I'm smelling my husbands attempts at making cookies...which were very high attempts but alas the cookies did not know how they were to cook so now it smells burnt...he's so cute. :p Right now he's going to Safeway to purchase proper replacements...lol

I've had some good days off in the last bit cause I've been really really tired...plus the days off have given me a chance to catch up on some cleaning and laundry, oh my goodness I'm a house frau...I have lost my will to mock and make fun I just like to clean and do laundry dear lord help me! You know I used to write a lot and now I can't seem to find the inspiration to get stuff down...it's bizarre it's like whatever motivated me before is either dormant or gone. I kind of miss those days.

There is also the fact that up until recently my laptop has been a out of commission so then I have to share the home computer with my hubby which makes it more difficult to spend time writing. Plus I prefer the whole, on the lap, thing involved with a laptop...who knows maybe when I get it back the inspiration will fly again I suppose you'll have to wait and see.

Stay tuned in a few weeks I might have more to write about that possibly has some substance...or I'll forget again and you won't hear from me till the new year....let's hope that doesn't happen. However if it does Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. :)

Funny how I consciously think about dating when I'm married...I suppose it's that retrospect thing...or wanting to share my wisdom...or vainly thinking someone would care....lol

Either way if you make it to the end of this congrats cause I have no idea at this point what I’m going to say. That quote in my subject I got from the book ‘He Just Not That Into You’ which of course is a cult classic, some absolutely swear by it’s wisdom and then there are others who poo poo it as some sort of pop culture excuse for relationships that don’t work. Me…I read excerpts from it and think that it has a point…even if it is written for the relationships of today.

So here is Sheri’s rant about dating, relationships and men. ;) I do know the irony of writing this sort of thing now when I’m in a stable relationship and have an end result to my years of wondering if I would ever get here. However, I think it’s my years of being single; going through the taboos and naysayers in that time gives credence to what I’m going to say…I suppose in the end you, the reader, can decide for yourself.

I’ll start with the fact that for any of this to work a woman (I speak only from a female perspective because I would not begin to know how a male thinks as I am not one. lol :) needs to have a idea about who she is and be proud to be that person. Since I am a Christian I also believe that working on a relationship with Jesus just strengthens who you are. I’ve also believed for a long time that in looking for a life partner you want to look not for someone to complete you but for someone to walk along side you as you work through who you are about to become. Change is inevitable and if you embrace the good change and stand up to the bad I think you are well on the way to finding a mate.

The thing that can drown even the best of us is the action of waiting to find that mate. This is probably one of the four letter words that I hate the most…WAIT. It’s a word that gives me chills and not in a good way. I hear the word and I see the endless tunnel of unknown with no end in sight. No idea of how long I must wait to see the result I long for. I remember being 21 and just begging the Lord to give me some sort of clue as to who I would marry or fall in love with. Would I know? Would it blind side me or would it be so obvious I couldn’t miss it? What if I did miss it? Would I get another chance? Had I already missed it?...and so on. These questions just devoured me…I was just under two years older than my mom had been when she got married to her high school sweetheart. (They hit 35 years married this year :) I figured I was over the hill and anyone who tried to make me feel better would say things like ‘I have this aunt who go married when she was 45…’ or ‘Maybe you shouldn’t be so picky…’ or ‘You’re too strong you scare guys away…’

Advice that was usually dolled out by those who were already married, had deluded themselves into thinking they were happy in their relationships, or were single and desperately trying to believe it themselves. I personally think those statements meant to be encouragement do not help at all!! At 21 I don’t want to hear about your aunt who was 45 or older when she finally got married! At the least you are giving me a 24 year window of desperately wanting it even more…so please keep that reassurance to yourself. I’m not being picky, I know who I am, I know the kind of personality that will compliment me and I am perfectly willing to get to know someone to find out if they are that personality. Don’t fault me if I figure it out sooner than most…I will not stay in a relationship with no goal just to say I’m in one. My favorite though and the one that caused me to grind my teeth as I slept is:

“You’re too strong you scare guys away…”

That statement I say is a lie. I will not deny that there are a lot of women who put up these huge defense mechanisms to protect them from the predators of the opposite sex and in turn could push away a perfectly good mate. I don’t blame them and fully believe that a real man will see that defense for what it is and be able to see past it and find the woman behind it. In my case my strength came from another man, my father, and I would not even begin to disrespect him by turning away from the person he helped me become. I am strong because I know who I am. I know who I am as a person. I know and trust in my relationship with Christ. This does not make me too strong…in fact it made me the woman I am who actually had a man fall in love with this strength.

Being strong did not mean I was looking for a puppy dog who would follow me wherever I went and did my bidding. One of things I love the most about my husband is the fact that he is not afraid of me…he embraces my strength and works with it, not against it. If I can find a man to love me like this then any other woman who wishes to embrace her strength can do the same. It’s as simple as that. Now of course there is that damn WAIT. Stupid word. I can’t guarantee that the moment you embrace who you are Mr. Right will knock on the door and say all the right things…but you will start feeling that much better about who you as well as WHERE you are in life.

I remember the moment that I decided I was okay. When I really meant it…I remember telling Krista that I was perfectly okay with being the best aunt ever if I was never to have my own children. And that I would travel as much of the world as I could and live life to the absolute fullest by myself if that was to be the case. I had said this kind of thing before but I think at that moment was when I actually believed them. I wasn’t half a person looking to be whole, I was a whole person who was given many privileges not least of which a huge group of family and friends who were loyal and loved me completely. I may have wanted a man in my life but I certainly didn’t NEED one. When she said to me ‘this is the first time I’ve actually believed you.’ I knew I was on the right track.

That conversation and that moment were about two months before I met my husband. It was also during that month where my father decided to fervently pray that I finally get to meet the man that he believed the Lord had picked out for me. Many, many times I had tried to manipulate that moment by saying those exact things but it was when I truly believed them that my course changed. I think intrinsically I knew that I really had to embrace those statements and then I could be content where I was. Please don’t hear that I had given up the search or that I had stopped desperately wanting to be in love. What I had given up was the amount of control I had given this desperation. My choice was not to given up on love, but to give up on my relentless pursuit of it.

Going back to dating I like some of things that the above book mentioned. The fact mainly being that a guy knows if he wants you and if he does then he will go after you. I remember after the end of a rather ridiculous relationship someone said to me ‘a man should be willing to crawl across broken glass to be with you.’ Meaning…I was worth being fought for…I was worth being pursued and allowing myself to be pursued did not mean that my independence or self worth was compromised.

I remember one of the first things that got me so interested in my husband. He was willing to call me (at his sister’s house no less!)…he endured relentless teasing from his family. Heck, he actually met me right in front of his parents KNOWING that they were looking ahead to our wedding…lol What sort of man goes through that if isn’t genuinely interested? Honestly I can’t think of one. I threw a lot of 'tests' at him to see if he was just ironically being the perfect man for me, but he fought past all of them. He wasn't afraid of me people! He, in turn, knew who HE was and knew HE could love me in a way no one had. Even if that specifically didn't go through his head, it showed in his actions. Which I read loud and clear. I have never been willing to ‘settle’ to stay with someone just to be in a relationship…even when that looked like the most promising antidote. So even though I had to ‘wait’ for my husband it was all completely worth it…I didn’t have to settle because Mr. Right-for-Me really was out there. I just met him about 10 years later then I had anticipated.

So what was my goal in this? I don’t know…don’t even get me started on being an ‘old virgin’ or ‘how the church treats older singles’ that would take more typing than I want to commit to right now. lol

Rant out...

...and I’m reassured there’s another way. – Josh Groban

Oh for the love! Josh Groban puts on an amazing concert! Seriously it was fantastic I loved the whole thing.

However before I get into the concert I must mention a little comment to my dear girl Gab…it’s true Molly is absolutely insane and downright mean…now my cat is just insane. Here’s the difference. She loves to cuddle and loves to be picked up and actually doesn’t mind my niece Jane (who’s 14 months) whereas Molly would have Jane for dinner. Miss Mao just really likes to play and since my feet happen to be on the ground she attacks them…it’s very funny…you’d like her as opposed to Molly who you hate for good reason…lol See now she’s sitting in my lap just purring hugging my arm while she sleeps cause she is also a suck…lol…okay I rest my case back to Josh and his wonderful singing and surprisingly hilarious humour.

Okay so if anyone has ever heard Josh Groban I figure there is no argument that he is a fantastic vocalist. Seriously his voice is amazing!! I was expecting this and was not disappointed when he opened the show with ‘You are Loved’ which is the song that Jonathan and I danced to at our reception. Gorgeous song it was a cuddle/sappy moment that’s for sure! Throughout the show he did not disappoint at all vocally he even ended with ‘You Raise Me Up’ which is another of my favorites, it always makes me think of my dad.

Anyway what surprised me was the fact that this guy is really funny! Unlike other artists I really knew nothing about him except that he sounds amazing so I was pleasantly surprised that he is also quite funny. An example is his response to the screaming girl fans…they yell I love you he says ‘I love you too’ and then adds ‘you frighten me with your love’…or when he did the song ‘In Her Eyes’ and started singing somewhere in the stands right next to some fans and they didn’t notice at first! LoL So he mocks them later saying ‘I can hear you bickering as I sing ‘harold get the camera he’s right there, I can’t believe it you missed him!’…’ He really was just very funny. I have more stories about that but you get the point, I won’t bog you down with that.

So yeah about the leg, after the show it did hurt a bit but it certainly wasn’t as bad as it was last week. Wow that was not fun. So tomorrow I’m going to the doctor to get it checked out and cleared for me to be able to go back to work. I actually miss work. I know I’m weird. After the doctor’s tomorrow I’m meeting my grandparents at the airport because they’re going to Ontario this week to see my brother-in-law play ball there. So I’m sending along some coffee for my parents because they LOVE that I get free coffee so I’m sharing…aren’t I a great daughter.

They have also finally found a place for us to have our third and final reception which is going to be at the Best Western in Cambridge on October 7^th…can’t wait!! It’s going to be such a good time, plus my mom is planning it…so I just have to be involved in some decision making, but mostly I’m showing up with my hubby and dress. How fun does that sound…yippie! I’ll add pics when I can…so fun. Anyway I’m going to attempt to organize a bookshelf…I don’t know how good I’ll be at it so wish me luck. I’ll blog soon!

...in that moment I know why I'm alive. - Josh Groban

Why am I quoting Josh Groban? Because I'm going to see him in concert tonight. My birthday present from Jonathan...you know after I said 'I want to go to the Josh Groban concert.' Nothing slips by my husband...lol

The leg is doing a bit better, mostly because I actually took the doctor's advice and have been staying off of it for the last couple of days. It still aches quite a bit if I'm on it too much so tonight will be fun...hopefully the concert will be so good it'll take my mind off of the pain. As will the extra strength Tylenol I'm popping these days. Most of the time it's just a dull ache but sometimes I get hit with a shooting pain...this healing business is just not all that fun...oh well this too shall pass.

I'm sure the concert tonight will boost my spirits...in fact I know it will. Although I have been lucky in this whole thing...I haven't lost out much in regards to wages because worker's comp and Starbucks have been good about reimbursing me what with it being a work injury and all...I just want to get back to work again...i actually like it and find I'm getting a bit bored just sitting around...ps. my cat is insane she is now attacking the pillow I have on the chair...as though she is saving me...oh wait no not saving me she just attacked my elbow...I think it's just an attacking moment or something, either way it is highly entertaining!...lol

Anyway I'm off to go have lunch with my hubby and hang out with him today...first though...pain meds...right...now I'm good...or will be in half an hour...the cat is attacking my heel now...she really is insane.

yup it's true folks I have done the unthinkable, or the thinkable...or the insane...truth be told I did the idiotic. I figured out, the hard way, that my body cannot do the splits...especially the half splits.

Let me set the stage...I have just started work and am in the process of making an amazing mocha frap...however there is a patch of water right in front of the frap station. *cue ominous music now* So Sheri in her efficient and fast way steps over to the frap station...her right heel hits the patch of water and shoots forward...her left leg decides that now is the time to go backwards and her arms come down to stop her from falling into a very bad form of the splits. Too late damage done she has pulled a few muscles in her thigh as well as twisted her knee ever so nicely.

Now the crutches tease her from where they lean against the wall daring her to figure out a way to walk without them.

Stupid patch of water.

So went through a drive thru clinic and got a fifteen second diagnosis of 'pulled muscle' jeez you think? Now, the next day, I'm holed up at home with the leg propped up getting ready to ice it again. However tomorrow I shall venture back to work to slowly start rehabilitating my muscles. They can't atrophy or anything and I suck at this thing they call a healing process...can't it go faster so I can go back to work??

On the plus side I can finally blog, something I haven't done in awhile and check through how other people are doing on their blogs and fully rest in the news that I get to be Nina Sheri in February...YAY baby dela Rosa is going to make his/her entrance into this world at that time and I'm ever so excited about that!!

That's it for my intelligent rant today...on another level if you haven't seen The Simpsons movie then I'd go it's mindless and every so much fun...in fact what makes the movie even better is going to see it with Krista and Vergil and then listening to Vergil and Jonathan giggle the whole time...it was fantastic.

Okay I have to go get that ice pack again...I'm out. :)

She's back on quotes folks...this one is by John Lancaster Spalding. It's random and I like it. So I'm reading That Hideous Strength by C.S. Lewis because I'm going back to reading books that actually inspire me to write. I have no idea if it'll work but heck I miss reading. lol I wanted to read the new Harry Potter but I refuse to buy the hardcover on the grounds that I can't afford it. However when all seven come out in paperback I'll hook myself up.

Besides Lewis has way more meat than Rowling I'm sorry to say. I'm also going to tackle Tolstoy, I don't know if that's brave or stupid but I'm gonna do it.

Onto some interesting.

Like the fact that I work at the Starbucks on Taylor if anyone blog related or not would like to come a taste a coffee beverage and meet me in person...if said blogger hadn't done so already...lol

Anyway I'm going to go read some blogs now it's been awhile since I've done that. :)

You know I don't know what to say...I have a lot of words flowing through my head and for some reason whenever I get to this thing I have nothing to put forth...I think if I did this blog thing more consistently it'd be easier...anyway:

So I'm reading throughs omething I wrote about 6 or 7 years ago and wow have I grown as a writer since then...yikes....I mean I'm certainly not perfect but I can articulate myself a lot better now I think...now if only I could work out this new idea properly and actually finish the idea that'd be nice.

Work is going well...I love it...I really do...I mean we have the stressful days but it's still a great job. I was thinking the other day about maybe going to school again...but right now I'm looking at keeping a job longer than a few months. And hey after a full year I can get mat leave...if I were in the need of mat leave of course. :p

I got nothin' else people...just that Jonathan and I need to be getting a new computer soon or fixing the laptop cause this thing I'm writing on now is driving me nuts!

I love family. You know I really do. I wish to high heaven that I could be around them so much more than I am. There is a wedding happening in BC this August and I SOOOO want to be there. I could see my cousin get married AND I could see my sister and her husband's new home. It would be amazing...and I can't because, oh yeah, we don't have the money. Stupid money...I hate it and my lack of it...lol

Ehm...I'm gonna move on now. I'd go on and on about not blogging but really who am I apologising to. You see my laptop it's on the fritz and I'm used to typing on that when I blog AND when I write. With it gone and me having to use Jonathan's computer I am not into writing a whole lot. This keyboard is weird and the computer is slow...in short...not fun.

Wish me luck...

So I've finally seen the new Pirates of the Caribbean movie...'At World's End'...and if the end of the world contains the view at the end of the movie I'm ALL for the end of the world...lol That sparked a need to see the movie 'Haven' so my girls Krista and Jae and I watched 'Haven' and 'Ned Kelly' while our guys went golfing. It was fun...of course that was a few days ago

Uh now I'm looking at working 8 days in a row and turning 30 somewhere in there.

Life it weird, I wish I could articulate it properly.

...okay so it's quite muggy and hot...but I wanted to sound optimistic.

It is so bizarre there are days when I have SO very much to say and then other days when I am at a loss for words. And I know that those of you who know me are wondering how in the heck I can be at a loss for words...I'm telling you people...LOSS for words.

Today is sort of in between...I'm kind of at a loss...but I want to put a post up so I'm just gonna start typing and we'll see what happens...oh wow!

So I was reflecting on something today. I just found out that my cousin is getting married in August. This is fantastic news because I know her fiance and I love him an I know that he just fits perfectly into her family...the thing is she is the youngest and I'm wondering how it is affecting her older sister. I know how much my sister's engagement affected me.

It's weird in retrospect I wouldn't have changed a thing. I'm so very glad that I got to wait to find my guy...but since I'm allowed to look back in retrospect then I could sound like I'm talking out of my arse. But people I'm still so very familiar with that feeling. The one where I felt like I was pitted against myself. There was part of me, the part that was so 100% supportive of my sister that was SO thrilled that she was getting married. Then there was the part of me that was jealous...just plain jealous.

It has to be said that it was never because my sister stuffed it down my throat. If anything she was overtly concerned about me. I just watched her with this man and desperately wanted that...and since it was my sister it was harder to brush aside. I knew the Lord had a man planned for me...I just had always assumed it would be before my sister. I mean isn't that the rule...oldest to youngest? Instead my sister got married, my brother was in a long term relationship and I had...no one.

I don't know how my cousin is dealing with her younger sister getting engaged, but knowing her personality I'm sure it's bothering her. I guess my message, if she wanted to hear it, would be to hold out and focus on her sister's happiness instead of her own disappointment. It worked for me...an unless you've gone through it, it's hard to relate. It's a tumultuous time that's for sure.

SO that was my ramble...did it make sense? Probably not, but I'm bloggin' yo...so I'm trying! :)

...go me.

So it's my dad's birthday tomorrow...sure wish I could call him and wish him a happy birthday...maybe next year.

You ever have one of those days where so many things seem to go right and you just don't know what to do with it because everything usually goes wrong? And then you berate yourself for not being able to just sit and enjoy any and all joy that comes your way. I always want to take any good day and turn it around to pray for better. Something like:

"Thanks for the good you gave me today Lord...now would you be a dear and deal with the hella huge pink elephant problem in my family right now so I could really and truly enjoy the next good day you give me? Thanks...ps- good on ya for hookin' me up before I'm 30...little bit of a tight squeeze there don't you think?"

Ya okay you're not supposed to be sarcastic with a Deity...but I have it on good authority that God has a sense of humor...I mean come on people a platypus?? :p

I'm sorry it's after midnight, I'm still up and decided to ramble. I guess it's not dad's birthday tomorrow any more...it's his birthday today...happy birthday dad...know that I love you even if I can't tell you today.

So I'm sipping the product of my first free pound of coffee from Starbucks...so good!

Well I said that I would blog more, thus here is another installment...aren't you all happy? I have about half an hour before I go to work so I'm gonna give you an update. I have been working at Starbucks for three days now. So fun!! Honestly it's a blast. I mean there is a heck of a lot of things to learn. And let me tell you I don't think I've ever done as much reading for a job as this one. I spent most of my first two shifts (13 hours in total) reading about coffee. Honestly there's a binder under the front counter that gives details about each of our coffees.

I'm gonna be a coffee guru, therefore a coffee snob...lol In fact yesterday I did my first coffee tasting. Did you know that there is actual ways to taste coffee? You smell (put the cup up to your nose then cup your hand over your nose and the cup and sniff...describe the smell) you taste (slurp the coffee so that it splashes throughout your mouth covering your palate...describe the taste)...you can also tell boldness by how long the coffee flavour sits on your tongue. LoL

I tasted the Kenya blend, which I swear has a hint of a grapefruit flavour...jeesh and I thought coffee was the caffeine boost that woke you up in the morning. Not so folks...not so...lol

The people are fantastic, they are so easy to learn around and so nice. I actually look forward to going to work...how bizarre! Today I get to learn the coffee bar, which means I get to learn how to make the fun coffees. I've done fraps but not the hot drinks...I'm gonna be all learned...on Monday I learn drive thru...dun dun dun

So on that learning note I'm gonna get my butt fully ready to go to work...oooh as a final thought I went and bought some new clothes yesterday...for work...but it was still fun...anyway...I gotta jet, I'll try to be more entertaining in my next post. :p

That's what I'm doing right now...hanging my head...in shame. I have been told by reliable sources *mymom* that there are some who are a little upset with me for not blogging...again with the shame.

It's not all the way down the back because I don't have a shot of that yet, but hey you can see my hair with Krista's hair clip in it...cute huh. I was actually having a conversation with my mom and my sister-in-law Jenny about flipping the bird...it was highly entertaining...lol

Okay so we got good pics and then we got to the log cabin where the reception was being held and oh my goodness it was decorated so gorgeously. Joelle had basically got some family friends to do the decorating and they did a fantastic job, I was so very impressed.

We had a short ceremony that everyone seemed to love...it was great. My mom's side of the family was all there. My family from California was there! All my uncles on my mom's side were there so I did have some family representation. It wasn't complete I wish my whole family could have been there...but they will be in the THIRD reception which doesn't have a date yet...but when it does I expect to see all of you Ontario blog readers there...with flowers. ;) As well as the Wiebe fam that I missed...a lot...I'm really getting married all year aren't I?

AND I get to wear the dress again...in hotter weather...hopefully not as tight...lol I don't know how ANYONE wore a corset...seriously it was intense...on the plus side I am told I looked good...so that made part of the not being to take deep breaths worth it. :p

So this is my blog today...tomorrow I'm back to work. I'm starting at Starbucks and then working three hours at Fabutan...it should be a full day and after my relaxing honeymoon I'm looking forward to it. Barrier Bay was awesome and just what we needed. I did a lot of napping and sleeping...something I very much needed. PLUS I got to spend all kinds of time with my hubby...who is awesome. :)

I'm signing off now...cause if I don't post it now I won't post it...and I don't want to make anyone else sad. ;) Love you all!!

Vacation is what you take when you can't take what you've been taking any longer. - The Lion

...and start sneezing, sometimes for five hours. I tried to find out what sort of allergy I had but finally came to the conclusion that it must be an allergy to consciousness. - James Thurber

Yeah that's it! I'm allergic to consciousness! It's not pollen or my cat's dander it's consciousness...I wonder if there is an over the counter medication for that cause that would help me sleep I think...lol

So what do I have to write about today? Hmm...let's see well it took me a few hours from writing that line before I continued...you see I had to bring my husband to work then come back home and drink coffee so that I could be somewhat coherent...I'll need more again before I go to work that's for sure. I have also showered and am looking forward to tanning before work. Yay.

Actually today won't be that hard at work because I'm training one of the new girls and basically she has to do most of the work...and I watch. LoL SOO difficult. This weekend Jonathan and I are going to try and set up our new toaster oven...actually it's like a supped up toaster oven it's fantastic...then we'll have to use it. :)

OH and it's mother's day and I wanted to order some flowers for my mom but I keep forgetting...Hey Judi you always read this wanna hook me up? LOL Seriously though I gotta do something, mom gets Julia out there so I gotta at least figure something out. You know last minute because that's how I play. Go me.

Guess what...I'm still watching TLC...but right now it's 10 Years Younger...although Baby Story is on in a few minutes...I'm telling you I'm an addict. Maybe once my allergies/cold tames down a bit I'll go out more...although I really enjoy going to work in the evenings. I get to talk to some fantastic people every night and it's a fun and relaxing job.

I'm gonna eat jello now...even though this chocolate commercial is killin' me. *sigh* Right...jello. :)

It's the transition that's troublesome. - Isaac Asimov

I'm back to quotes...actually I'm sure you can figure that out just by reading the titles so I'll stop stating the obvious.

Why did you leave Prov? Is a very good question. In short the position was going in a direction that I wasn't willing to take it. It would have required a kind of dedication to the job that I'm not willing to give right now. My familial relationships and marriage are more important to me and what was being asked of me far exceeded what I was willing to give. So I made the decision to resign and let them hire someone that was more mailable than myself. :)

In answer to Michele's question it is most definitely a good thing. It was a good decision and I'm feeling a lot better now stress wise so it's definitely good. I'd also love to go out for coffee. :) Give me a call and we'll set it up! :)

Right anyway...today I am going to a bridal shower for me...I'm looking forward to it, it's with mostly Jonathan's family and a bit of mine...it'll be fun. Plus let's me honest, there's presents...I love presents...lol OH and before that I get to go shopping with Krista for wedding stuff...so I should probably you know, shower and get ready. :)

Okay the quotes are on hiatus for the moment because I have some title ideas right now...like today where I would just like ya'll to know that I watch too much TLC now! LoL

You see I don't work at Providence any more (it didn't work out) so right now I just work at Fabutan which, at this point, is just evenings so I get to watch daytime TV.

And I have watched way too much TLC...do you wanna know what they show during the day? Oh yeah a HECK of a lot of shows like 'baby story' 'bringing home baby' and more...I swear it has made me SOO frickin' broody! Jonathan keeps telling me to stop watching it, but I can't! That moment when the baby is born LORD I bawl every time it's ridiculous.

No I don't want to get pregnant I just...

Okay so a little bit I want to get pregnant but now is a crappy time and I know that.

But BROODY...Sheri is BROODY! What makes it worse is I REALLY want to be able to experience these things that I see on TV with Krista. I want to be around her as she's pregnant and go visit when she has the baby and for the LOVE of God finally see what their children will look like.

GAH...you know I thought after I got married people would keep asking me when I'm gonna have kids...forget that I can't stop thinking about it! LoL I wanna know what my kids are gonna look like and I'm still wrapping my head around the idea that it's actually possible for me to have kids! I mean before it was just a dream now with Jonathan it's a reality it's so bizarre.

Am I romanticizing it? Umm ya! Isn't that the point? If I thought about all of the stuff that having a baby entails I would not want one...I know what I'd be giving up...hence the not a good idea to get pregnant now...that doesn't mean that I can't think about what my baby would look like or what pregnancy will be like.

*sigh* Turn off TLC Sheri...go watch CSI. lmao

Sorry no quote today because I would like to take a moment and discuss a few things. The first pertaining to John Mayer and the entity that is known as...

I myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning up to do afterward. - Kurt Vonnegut

So I'm frustrated mostly with work and the fact that it bothers me when things fubar out of my control. Especially when it involves people who could be doing a better job but aren't. :p Like me...okay that's not fair. It's not about who is doing what wrong, it's about the fact that I've got a situation and if it ends up that I have cancel one of my tours as a result I'm going to be very discouraged. Sometimes I am very frustrated by where I work.

The excuse of the loudest complainer is that he is getting married and it costs a lot and it's stressful. (Plus he has to go on tour, boo hoo) You know that river you're crying kid do it FAR away from me. My sympathy level for that individual is NIL, NADA, ZILTCH! I'm planning two three week tours WHILE planning THREE count 'em THREE weddings on a meager budget. I don't weep for you little boy...not at all. My advice SUCK IT UP PRINCESS!

Ehm...and zen...hear the ocean...avoid seagull crap...moving on

In other news I am busy as a bee at home. Married life is going quite well thank you, but moving is not. Mainly because we haven't moved yet. That is something we need to do next week and weekend. Then I have to try and set up house while still working. I have to work my part time job the following weekend on Friday night and Sunday while my lovely husband has to work Saturday. Gross huh?

Then we sail into May two VERY tired individuals who are also trying to plan our wedding as well. Don't get me started on that...mainly because I can't darn well get started on it because I have to send these teams (at work) on tours in two weeks and one of them is discouraging me with it's immaturity and lack of support. Ugh...drink more wine. :) Much better.

The weather isn't helping cause it starts off cold in the morning and then works it's way to warm over the day. This should be great except it sucks because you can't totally enjoy spring if it's only here for a few hours. Plus my skin is not happy...

Ugh and double ugh. There is a silver lining in here somewhere I just have to find it...hmm...maybe it's under all the laundry I have no time to do...or under that pile of work I had to take home...or the cat is playing with it.

I'll go check.

Because I really need to become even MORE addicted to yet another blog community thing...I mean really!

Facebook Sheri!

Okay I'm at livejournal, myspace, this place and now facebook. *sigh* I don't know why I do this I just get hooked...yikes!

Okay gotta get ready to go to the other job. Wish me luck this weekend what with not getting ANY time off really...then going back to work, then going to Ontario for give days. GAH so busy.

When is that honeymoon again??

PS- If you are on facebook I insist you friend request me...or uh I ask you politely too. Please? :)

Thank you, Anthony Burgess! I couldn't have said it better myself.

So it's Sheri's first week as a married woman. Would you like some highlights? Don't worry I'll stay G-rated. ;) Let's start with I now sleep in the same bed as a man who is training for the sleeping Olympics. I kid you not, I thought that I moved a lot while I slept...I have nothing on this man...yikes!

He doesn't just turn over in bed he launches upward and then lands. Plus I think he was talking in his sleep and I kid you not, there was humming. My husband hums when he sleeps. This is turning out to be a very interesting marriage already. So he knees me in the back one night because of his launch and land turnover technique so that wakes me up. Then he, still sleeping, is talking and humming. Me...still awake. Then after the conversation and the humming performance he starts snoring.

LOL...oh my. Luckily this hasn't been an every night thing, but really I may have to go to sleep wearing protection...and I don't mean 'that' kind. :)

So in case you were wondering how married life is treating me, the first 4.5 days has gone really well.

Oh and about pics...I'll put up the 'red dress' wedding pics as soon as I get some. I'm excited to see them too, I hope they turned out. :)

So work...still here...I should do it.

That quote was by: Mignon McLaughlin I don't know who that is but I like to give credit to whomever gave the quote. :)

So I'm married now. Honestly it's still kinda bizarre. What resonates the most is the fact that I don't have to go home at the end of the day because I am home. This morning the cat was very confused with the new arrangement. She loved it of course because I cuddle her way more than he does...but still. She jumped up on the bed and sat on my chest looking at me like she was saying 'okay what are you still doing here?' LoL

We're not in OUR apartment yet so it's still transition but heck it's closer. And wow I can't stop looking at my rings. The waitress we had for our brunch on Sunday said she could tell we just got married because I kept looking at my rings and Jonathan's ring was too shiny to have been worn longer than a day. lol

The wedding went fantastic. Although it was kind of bizarre, we wanted it to be formal but at the same time it felt too intimate to be formal. Technically we only had one person in the congregation (Yay Michele! :) but it was still fantastic. I didn't cry as much as I thought I would although I got a bit choked when we read our vows and then when Krista and Vergil read the blessings that my parents sent. Mainly though, I got to focus on the man I was marrying without the distraction of anyone else. It was wonderful. So after that we went to 'The Melting Pot' which is just a great restaurant! If you like fondue and live in Winnipeg you have to check it out. We had a lot of fun!

We were at the Fort Garry Saturday night so we got enjoy the Sunday brunch there in the morning. It was SO GOOD! Mmm...great food and so much of it. I wanted to eat way more but there is only so much food I can fit into my body...I ate my fill at least. Then Jonathan and I went home and just relaxed. It's kinda weird being here at work because it seems as though I should be gone for awhile...but that's okay I'll be doing that soon enough in May. (See the new coutdown? ;)

So yeah, I'm a married woman...a wife...wow...so bizarre. I'll post pictures when I can, I don't have any right now but I'll get too it *poke* Krista *poke*. LoL

All in all...a great day. A perfect little civil ceremony all about us starting out marriage which is exactly what we wanted. Now I get to go into the planning of the bigger event where I get to wear my dress! YAY!

Yeah that title/quote is from Tom Clancy...I am telling you this quotations page is just an endless supply of entertainment. Like the next quote for example:

His mother should have thrown him away and kept the stork. - Mae West (1892-1980)


Now tell me that's not funny, actually don't I think it's funny so that's all that matters. I'm not sure why, maybe it's because my brain needs mindless entertainment because right now all I can think about is everything I should be doing before Saturday.

Actually that last quote reminds me of a story. Once my maternal grandparents were curling with another couple. If you don't know much about curling I'd suggest looking it up cause I can't explain it...ahaha Anyway during one point when my grandmother was 'sweeping' the skip (the other gentleman) started yelling at her cause she didn't do it the way he wanted or whatever. Anyway my main point is she got so ticked at him (no one yells at my grandmother :) she walked up to him and said 'If you were my husband I'd trade you in for a cow...and then I'd shoot the cow'...LoL If you know me at all can't you just tell she's MY grandmother? :)

You know what's fun, I got a call from the salon where I'm getting my nails done on Saturday just to be sure that I remember I have an appointment...how great is that! I don't know why that phone call made me so happy but it did. It was great. Now I can't wait for the actual manicure ahaha.

I am in need of actually purchasing the shoes I'm going to wear on Saturday so my look is then complete. I also have to find a way to move things into Jonathan's apartment without driving myself just slightly insane. The next few weeks aren't going to be all that fun what with having to move yet again. Although I get to visit my parents on Easter weekend so that's good.

I saw this documentary Sharkwater last night. It was an amazingly done movie, really it was. There were some preachy moments where it sounded a bit like they were trying to really tug on the heart strings. But for the most part it made a lot of sense and really made me think. I mean I didn't realize how much abuse the Ocean takes from us. I mean I knew about whaling and for the most part don't agree with that and stuff...but the fact that fishermen will do things like 'long lining' and 'shark finning' just astounded me.

Long lining is when they put out about a 60 mile long fishing line with baited hooks on it to catch certain types of fish. The problem is hundreds of other sea creatures get stuck and killed on the lines at the same time. And the most use they want out of the sharks on there is to fin them. Which means the cut all of their fins off and then throw the still breathing carcass back into the water where it either drowns or bleeds to death. It saddens me how stupid humans can be. We can really get a god complex about some things and stuff like this ticks me off.

Anyway the whole movie was quite beautiful and I hope that it raises awarness for their cause. My only complaint is since half of it was hand held I got a bit naseous trying to watch it. But that's my own fault. :)

Catch ya later!

My new title/quote is by Joseph Chilton Pearce. I get these quotes from: The Quotations Page just in case anyone was interested. Anyway I'll get onto this blogging thing, not quite sure what I'm going to say today so it's a bit of a surprise even to me. Bare with me.

Oooh the stomach it does grumble I do believe I'm going to have to go eat some lunch soon before I can actually write anything because I am distracted by the pain of needing to eat. I'll be back in an hour, which will seem like moments to you. :)

Wow it's been a bit longer than an hour...whoops. I got caught up in work things...odd huh? Don't worry though I'm back and in full form...well more like 3/4 form cause my neck hurts. Honestly what is up with my back and neck protesting these days. I am too dang young for these sorts of pains...someone tell my body to behave!

Okay so today I get my hair done and I'm very pumped about that. Like VERY. :) I'm not sure exactly what I'll get. I don't want anything drastic but I would like something flattering that looks good curly and straight and I always like it when my hair is one colour...ahaha I'm gonna have to try to match it for the other two weddings. Although I guess they can stand alone cause they are gonna be in the ivory dress and this is the one in the red dress. :) I'm so unique aren't I? Yeah well if I can't have what I want then I'll just do the next best thing.

Hmm...question...can I talk about anything but the wedding in this particular paragraph, cause it's painfully obvious that this entry is going to be mostly about the wedding. Oh crap I already started this paragraph about the wedding. I'm so losing this...ehm

I am going to admit it to you guys I just feel like I need to get this off my chest. I have this bizarre fascination with reading 'Angel' and 'Buffy, The Vampire Slayer', transcripts. I'm serious I've almost read two seasons of both. I'm telling you Joss Whedon is friggin' brilliant. He'd be the creator of both shows...he also created this ingenious show 'Firefly' but for some reason that didn't take off the way Buffy and Angel did. The man, frankly, is a dialogue genius and I think TV is missing out by not having him involved in a current TV show. However he may be ahead of his time and not ready to be properly appreciated. Either way...genius...to the point of it being fun to read transcripts as well as watching the actual episodes.

Okay I'm off to be productive before my evening of hair dressing...wait...does that make sense?

I'll go ponder that. :)

That quote is by Einstein and it seemed to fit my mood so there it is, yet another quote...fun stuff huh? Yeah I know you're all giggling from the joy. Here's another good one:

I believe in looking reality straight in the eye and denying it. Garrison Keillor

Amen! :)

...and shortened period of mental assimilation. Konstantin Stanislavsky (1863 - 1938)

...between his inner vision and its ultimate expression. - Isaac Bashevis Singer (1904 - 1991)

I have now taken to finding random quotes to use as my titles since my ability to create unique titles is on hiatus at the moment.

My mind is kind of all over the place these days. It's doing a dance and I'm not invited to hear the music. I'm in the throws of trying to get ready for my wedding on the 24th. But it's not really my wedding is it? It's the start of my marriage but my wedding is actually in May...although if my dad is not walking me down the aisle in May then does that not make that a wedding either? It's all convoluted in my head with the weirdness of it all.

Breaking it down to the bare bones March 24th is the start of my marriage so that is a very important day, even if I'm gonna wear a red dress. :) I'm saving the white (read: ivory) for the other two celebrations. It gives my mom a chance to see me wear it for the first time in May. She's walking me downt he aisle on that day...Dad gets his own day as soon as we can plan it.

Anyway trying to figure that out is just a whole lot more thinking then I want to do right now. I'm getting married to the man I love that is the main thing. I shall now move onto the things that are distracting me right now.

It's funny when my mind gets all bogged down with things I have to do I manage to distract myself with things I shouldn't be doing...or at least I don't think I should be doing them. For example I just wanna watch TV...back episodes of shows I never watched and new episodes of shows I find interesting. I feel guilty when I do this because I feel like I should be doing something 'more productive' how sad is that? I can't even lie down for an hour reading something I want to read without looking at the boxes in my room and thinking 'I should be packing'.

It's friggin' sad I tell you. I want to be able to truly and really relax but I'm so wound up relaxing is almost painful and insanely guilt inducing.

I'm gonna go get some coffee now (cause that'll help with the jitters lol) and attempt to get some work done without constantly thinking about the fact that I'm moving and getting married in a week and a half.

If someone happens to see my life can you please tell it to slow down?

Yeah I have some posts below this that have a bit more substance, but honestly this is fun and oh so distracting! Thanks to Amanda for it! :)

PS- Anyone notice my countdown clock??

1. What time did you get up this morning? About 6:15AM
2. Diamonds or Pearls? Diamonds, pearls don't do much for me
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Oh goodness I don't even remember uh...yikes has it really been that long?
4. What is your favourite TV show? CSI and CSI:NY
5. What did you eat for breakfast? Coffee cake and a cup of coffee...notice the theme :)
6. What foods do you dislike? Not much actually I don't like anything way too spicy but I'll almost try anything once.
7. Your favourite potato chip? Tandoori Doritos <-- oooh yeah I agree I just tried those and love them...good to know Doritos are still a staple with you Amanda. :)
8. What is your favourite CD at the moment? 'Portable Sounds' - TobyMac (He's a habit I've had since getting my first dctalk tape when I was 12 :p )
9. What kind of car do you drive? 2003 Hyundai Elantra (wow I've never been able to answer that question before...lol)
10. Favourite sandwich? Oooh these grilled ones that Jonathan makes...they are SO good. And this other pastromi one that he makes, the name escapes me now but wow soo good!
11. What characteristics do you despise? selfishness and self pity
12. What are your favorite clothes? right now the red dress I just bought ;)
13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? Spain or Australia first...then as much of the world as I can afford to see...lol
14. What color is your bathroom? Ya know ask me that in a month when I finally have my own apartment
15. Favourite brand of clothing? AE and Esprit
16. Favourite time of day? Midday, more when I'm at home
17. Where would you want to retire to? Somewhere warm and somewhat isolated.
18. Favorite sport to watch? soccer
19. Coke or Pepsi? eh don't really care
20. Are you a morning person or night owl? morning person
21. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? check out my countdown clock, that's the most exciting news I've got so far ;)
22. What did you want to be when you grew up? Honestly? A mother, who is an author whenever she gets a spare minute
23. What is your best childhood memory? family trips, camping, swimming
24. Nicknames? Fred <-- haha Amanda, still looking for George? My nicknames are Sher, Shickmo, Shariqua, Sherinda, Sherice and whatever Jonathan feels like calling me. :p
25. Piercings? 9 mostly in my ears except for the one in my belly button
26. Eye Color? very blue
27. Favorite day of the week? Saturday
28. Favorite restaurant? Shogun
29. Favorite ice cream? cherry cheesecake
30. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? AE and then a clothing store that would give me great business clothes!
31. Bedtime? between 9 and 10
32. What are you listening to right now? Jars of Clay - Mirrors and Smoke
33. How many tattoos do you have? I have been saying for 10yrs that I want one <-- me too, one day I'm gonna get one. I just have to convince Jonathan to design it for me. :)
34. Next film you'll see? Hopefully one soon...there are so many I want to see.

I would like to make sure it's understood that I by all means trust God implicitly. All things are done in His timing and according to His plan and just because I don't like or understand it does not make His timing any less divine.

That said...

What the HECK is up with His timing?? I mean really. I don't think I could conceivably think of a worse time for me to get married, aside from the all important fact that I am quite in love and want to desperately marry this man. However, the celebration that is supposed to accompany this event is all messed up because of the situation surrounding my dad. So now I'm getting married three times, to the same man at different dates this year. It's my marrying year. :p

To make matters worse or just even more bizarre when it comes to timing is the fact that my best friend is going through such a rough time in her desire to be pregnant. This of course leads me to not understand why in the name of heaven some people who should NOT be procreating are doing so like rabbits and my wonderful friends the delaRosa's are still not pregnant. *pout* It makes me mad...NOT FAIR I want to scream.

Krista and Vergil would make fantastic parents and I'm not saying that only because they are my best friends. It's because it's a fact, they would make fantastic parents. They are a great blend of humility, strength and downright fear of parenting that just makes them so ripe and ready to have kids. So you know what God, do it already! :p Oh that's right I stuck my tongue out at you...so help them then! (I want to stomp my foot like a petulant child after saying that.)

On a random other note, that really has nothing to do with the above rant, I had a great week this past week. My friend Jenn was here so through her I got to see a lot of my old Prov friends. This is sad because I live here it would seem silly for me to have to wait for someone to come from New Brunswick before I see friends that are mere blocks away. But such is the case when life is overwhelming.

Anyway it was a lot of fun. We had a sleepover, she came to work with me and watched CSI:NY on my laptop, we went out for sushi and just basically hung out. It was great and now I miss her again. Sometimes I wish we could telaport to wherever we wanted whenever we wanted to see someone. Of course that would lead me to the conclusion that it would probably go the same as it does when you live in the same province as someone. I would come home from a long day at work look at my telaporter and think 'eh I'll go visit BC another day' and then I'd have to plan the vacation to see it anyway.

I think as I grow older (and I am by no means old but still...getting older) my spontaneity is dwindling. Or at the very least suffocating under the responsibility that came up out of no where. Now I just don't go places I have to worry about how much it costs and how that impacts my future. I mean really. Heck even this week with the sleepover I'm still recovering. I used to be able to party till 1 or 2 AM and then work at 6AM and be fine. Now one night when I go to sleep at midnight a few days later I'm still tired.

Well one thing I've got that my early twenties self did not have. I have the actual countdown till I get married which is something I really wanted then.

15 days till that happens.

Weird.

Oh dear it's been almost a month. I've fallen off the ball and you know how difficult it is to get onto a ball! :) Especially now, I started this thing an hour ago and then got distracted by actual work. Oh yeah go me.

So now I'm on the cusp of lunch and will probably not get this posted till after. I found this quote just now and decided to share it:

"I do not want people to be very agreeable, as it saves me the trouble of liking them a great deal." - Jane Austin

LoL, Amen Jane!

Okay this was supposed to be posted yesterday...oh no wait the day before. What day is it?

Yikes...I'll go right more in a proper post and just leave this one at, I kinda want to see the movie 'Becoming Jane' which prompted me putting in that quote. If you click the link you can see what it's all about, it interests me mainly because her books interest me. I would love to own them myself one day.

The only odd thing is Jane's love interest is played by the actor who portrayed Mr. Tumnus in 'The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe' a couple of years ago. I'll have to remind myself that he's not a faun when I watch that movie.

Now on to a today post.

It's funny, I'll open up my blog and think that I have so many things to say and once I get here, I got nothing.

Yesterday I went to one of Jonathan's Aunt's places. She has these annual parties for all of the women in the family, those who are born in as well as married in. Apparently I qualify even if I'm techinically not married to the man yet. :) I met some cousin's I haven't met before and got to know some Aunts I still hadn't talked to...plus I got to hang out with Jonathan's sisters one of whom already is one of my best friends.

In short it was great and it made me kind of sad that I don't live close to my family. I mean I could move to an area where they are but it wouldn't be the same. These people have been nurturing close family relationships for years. It kind of made me sad that my family is all over the map.

It was nice to be welcomed in so whole heartedly. They are a fun group of women I really like them.

And for some reason I didn't post this entry almost a month ago. Rereading it brought me back to that Saturday night which was really quite fun. I wish that my family could be close enough geographically so we could do that. It was a good time.

I also wish I had time for just anything that I actually want to do.

LOL...I don't know why it was funny...there is actually a series of cartoons about guard duck and his migratory love...but this just struck me as funny.

Enjoy folks...Happy Belated Valentines Day.

First off I'd like to say thanks to anyone who guessed which sarcastic response did not happen. It was in fact the bread one however I would like to say that a person actually DID ask me that question, I just didn't respond in the way that I wanted. I mean who comes to a bakery and asks if we have bread?

Secondly I'd like to mention that Jonathan and I finally got a car that works! It's a 2003 Hyundai Elantra, it's sliver with tinted windows and it WORKS! :) Jonathan and I were astounded as we drove through the city that the car didn't stall or threaten to stall at red lights and it doesn't take forever to start in the morning, just one turn of the key. WOO HOO! :)

That's the good news, now here comes the bad. For those of you who know this will make more sense for the others I'm sure you'll least understand how it impacts me. My dad, whom I absolutely adore and love cannot under any circumstances make it to my wedding. It's not his fault it's completely out of his control, we tried everything to bring a wedding of some kind to him but no dice, he's not even allowed that.

How does a bride who desperately wants her father to give her away in one of the most symbolic moments of her life deal with this kind of information? I don't know, there has been so much pain already involving my dad that on some level this just feels like another thing to add.

But it's my WEDDING damnit...don't I deserve to at least have one of the most important men in my life there?? Especially since it's dang important for me to have him give my hand to my future husband? I've dreamt about this for as long as I can remember and now it's being taken away from me and there's nothing I can do about it!

Plus I feel mountains of stress from work to perform and do everything right and I still mostly don't have a clue what I'm doing. I'm at home today due to a major migraine (that is stayed now with pain med) because the pressure of everything in my life right now is boiling over into my health.

I don't know what to do I feel like every decision I make right now is failure.

I usually start a post with a title and then work my way through the post incorporating the title. Is that a writer thing? I have no idea but it's what I do. I do that with emails too, I need subject lines, I don't know why...anyway today I can't think of a title so I'm just going to ramble here for a bit and maybe one will jump out at me.

Random thought...I like jolly rancher chews, they are just so full flavour. Here's another random thought, I got a random card in the mail the other day. My sister and her best friend (who is my friend too :) sent me presents in lue of my lingerie shower last Friday. In the box (which said 'Sheri gets to have sex' on the front, thanks Becky :) were two beautiful pieces that I can add to my ever growing collection. Anyway also in the box was a card that congratulated me on turning one. LoL I asked my sister about it and she said that all they could find when they were looking for cards were these cheesy ones with silly poems and stuff so they randomly picked another one..it's very funny. :)

I'm doing it again...I'm trying not to get bogged down with the eighty things that I apparently NEED to do yesterday! Dangit, I know now why the turn over in this job is so high...I don't know how anyone could do this for longer than a couple of years without going slightly insane. And let's face it I'm already slightly insane, any longer and I'll be certifiable. Stupid job. So then why am I blogging and not working? Well it's break time and since I rarely actually TAKE a break I figured I'd blog for a couple of minutes. Justified? Most certainly.

So I was thinking about sarcasm the other day and how it has affected my life (read: infiltrated and thus taken over). A lot deem sarcasm a very mean form of communicating and I beg to differ only in that the person who is sarcastic needs to be aware of his/her audience. I mostly am...there have been times when maybe I should have but I wasn't. I will pose a couple of situations to you and you may guess which of the retorts I did NOT say and I'll let you know who gets it right. All of the situations happened...just one I thought the retort and did not say it. ;)

Here goes:

Situation one:
Working at McDonald's a drive thru customer requested that I put ice in one of his large drinks but not both of them. When I handed the tray to him he asked, 'Which one has ice?'
Response:
"Shake them, the one that makes noise more than likely has the ice."

Situation two:
Working at a bakery pulling out a large rack of fresh bread behind me I was approached by a customer who said, 'Do you have any bread?'
Response:
"Nope, what you see behind me is a figment of your imagination."

Situation three:
Working at Tim Hortons a woman was beyond rude going through drive thru. I was finishing three months of night shift and moving to BC in a week. The woman tells me after I have handed her the drink tray that she can get me fired.
Response:
"Good luck I've already quit."

So faithful blog readers...which of these three response did I NOT say?? I would put a time limit on it but frankly I just want to see how many of you read this and respond.

Okay I hear you it's time to get back to work. Fine I will...hope you had fun reading...ooh I thought of a title.

I'm apparently entitled to the dawn because it's my middle name.

You know how 'they' say it's always darkest before the dawn? Well apparently that means there's gonna be a dawn...and I believe it because my mom said.

In the mean time I'm learning to appreciate each day and what it can give me and I've gotta say today brought me a lot of laughs. It really did. It's so ridiculously late and I'm still up because I've just finished having the most hilarious shower.

It was insane!!

Honestly the kinds of seeds a person sows over the years really can come back to haunt you.

I had my lingerie shower tonight and it was too much fun. I got to see old friends that I haven't seen in awhile and congratulation one of them on her engagement. I got to recieve payback from some of them who got fun presents from me at their showers...oh yeah and I laughed.

Man there was laughing.

I have some of the funniest friends...it amazes me how I've acquired them but I truely have some great friends and family too...presents, literally, from around the world. I got something from Australia for goodness sake! (Thanks Nics!!!)

It's days like these that really help me to believe that there is a dawn...so I should get to sleep before dawn actually hits.

I gotta remember for thank you cards! :)

Anyone who reads this who was there...you guys are so fantastic...you really are. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart...and I gotta say...just as an FYI. I'm pretty sure Jonathan thanks you too. :)