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Okay I know I'm not even overdue yet but I don't care I'm so ready to have this baby! LoL My dad is already here and my mom will be coming in tonight so really there is nothing left for me to wait for. I figure tomorrow is a good time as any...LoL I know if I'm actually a week overdue I'm not gonna be a happy camper. At least right now I have my air conditioner to make life a bit better in the apartment...although tomorrow I'm gonna start walking with my mom, as much as possible. :p
And since I haven't ranted much in the last few weeks...okay I rant all the time...but really this is a rant that I sort of started putting together in my head the other night when I couldn't sleep. I am so ready for this...not giving birth or the labour (although I'm ready for that too) the whole being a mom thing. What's funny is, that doesn't seem to placate those who would want to 'warn' me about what I'm in for...some don't know me that well and aren't aware of how old I am. Other's think they are helping when really it's patronizing (but then again it's me, I feel patronized a lot sooner than most).
I am aware that I have given up my body as it once was forever. I had that body for 30 years I'm okay giving it up and frankly more people were obsessed with my body than me...in the long run it's not a loss to me and worth giving up for my child. I also know that I won't ever have the same sleep pattern again. In fact in the next few weeks I probably won't get a consecutive amount of sleep adding to more than a couple of hours (I haven't had that in over a month anyway). Again...this is okay...no really I get it, no sleep, it's still okay. I have to sacrifice everything in my life for this child and I'm okay with that. Woman have done it before me and will do it after me, I am capable of doing it and know that. Yes I know the baby is going to cry and yes I know that is going to stress me out when I can't fix it...that's okay...no baby ever died from crying and I'm willing to learn in the moment the way any other parent did it. Crying babies do not scare me...they never really have.
Seeing her face for the first time, hearing her cry, watching her smile and every other amazing thing that is involved in parenting makes every sacrifice worth it. I have waited a long time to have my own child and being aloud to have one with such an amazing husband makes it worth how long I've waited. I don't think I need to be reminded any more what I'm giving up and how my life will change. I've been able to be selfish and live for myself for a bit longer than a lot of parents so I think it's really great timing for Jonathan and I. Life will change...I get it...life will also get so much better because she'll be in it. We'll have this new person that we've created together with us...that makes it worth it.
Life as I now know it will change and I couldn't be happier about it.
Hmm...I suppose that wasn't as much of a rant as I thought it would be...time for me to go eat some food...again...and possibly get a slurpee because I'm hot. :p
And since I haven't ranted much in the last few weeks...okay I rant all the time...but really this is a rant that I sort of started putting together in my head the other night when I couldn't sleep. I am so ready for this...not giving birth or the labour (although I'm ready for that too) the whole being a mom thing. What's funny is, that doesn't seem to placate those who would want to 'warn' me about what I'm in for...some don't know me that well and aren't aware of how old I am. Other's think they are helping when really it's patronizing (but then again it's me, I feel patronized a lot sooner than most).
I am aware that I have given up my body as it once was forever. I had that body for 30 years I'm okay giving it up and frankly more people were obsessed with my body than me...in the long run it's not a loss to me and worth giving up for my child. I also know that I won't ever have the same sleep pattern again. In fact in the next few weeks I probably won't get a consecutive amount of sleep adding to more than a couple of hours (I haven't had that in over a month anyway). Again...this is okay...no really I get it, no sleep, it's still okay. I have to sacrifice everything in my life for this child and I'm okay with that. Woman have done it before me and will do it after me, I am capable of doing it and know that. Yes I know the baby is going to cry and yes I know that is going to stress me out when I can't fix it...that's okay...no baby ever died from crying and I'm willing to learn in the moment the way any other parent did it. Crying babies do not scare me...they never really have.
Seeing her face for the first time, hearing her cry, watching her smile and every other amazing thing that is involved in parenting makes every sacrifice worth it. I have waited a long time to have my own child and being aloud to have one with such an amazing husband makes it worth how long I've waited. I don't think I need to be reminded any more what I'm giving up and how my life will change. I've been able to be selfish and live for myself for a bit longer than a lot of parents so I think it's really great timing for Jonathan and I. Life will change...I get it...life will also get so much better because she'll be in it. We'll have this new person that we've created together with us...that makes it worth it.
Life as I now know it will change and I couldn't be happier about it.
Hmm...I suppose that wasn't as much of a rant as I thought it would be...time for me to go eat some food...again...and possibly get a slurpee because I'm hot. :p
Oh Sheri! I'm so excited for you and your little baby! You're going to be an amazing parent! (Jonathan will be too, of course... lol) Can't wait to meet her!